For years I thought it was OK to just wait for things to fall into my lap. Artistic opportunities, jobs, lovers… And they did. Strangely enough. My sister always said, “You are the luckiest person I know, things always come to you !” She was right. I was just a lucky person. Until I wasn't anymore. And things stopped falling into my lap. $10,000 development deals with Warner Records turned into corporate gigs with a latino band. My day job was no longer a part time thing but a daily ritual to pay off accumulating bills. And I was suddenly single in an unfamiliar dating world that had become shallow, tricky and complicated. What happened to my horseshoe? All this time I had been holding onto a lucky star, and I never realized it let go of me . I got lazy, didn’t pull my own weight and it dropped me. I soon gave up on what I wanted. I was repeatedly drawn to people that I thought had a special spark or talent. And I bent over backwards to help them,