Tonight, after a family dinner at my parent’s house (and after my sister and her family noisily tumbled out the door) I found myself sweeping the kitchen floor.
Over the clinking and clanking of dishes in the sink, dad calls out to mom in the other room.
Dad: Rosa, did you take the garbage out?
Mom (muffled): Yes.
Dad (not hearing her): Ro? Did you do it? Or do I have to do it? Tanya, ask your mother-
Me (cutting him off): Yes, Dad, she did it.
Mom (loudly now): He can’t hear me anymore! Yes, John! It’s done.
Dad: Ok, thanks honey. Can you pass me the dishcloth over there?
Then we got quiet, and I could hear the dryer tumbling in the other room.
The scent of fabric softener and dish soap wafting through the air.
My eyes were on the floor as I began sweeping under the same kitchen table as I did back when I was seven or twelve or nineteen…
And without warning I had a flashback to ‘teenager me’ sweeping in my childhood home.
I was wondering about my homework as I made my way around the table with the broom.
I was wondering what I would wear to school the next day.
I was trying to figure out how to steal the television away from my sister who was watching her pre-recorded soaps on the VHS.
But above all that I was remembering, I had this great rush of feeling.
I felt safe.
Like I belonged exactly where I was, with all the people I loved most.
When I tuned back in to real time after this brief little flash down memory lane, I felt lighter.
Ordinary moments always bring me the most solace.
And as I continued sweeping and listening to my parents’ chit chat, I made a mental note to flashback to this moment in twenty years or so, to remember just how perfect it was.
Exactly as it was.
Over the clinking and clanking of dishes in the sink, dad calls out to mom in the other room.
Dad: Rosa, did you take the garbage out?
Mom (muffled): Yes.
Dad (not hearing her): Ro? Did you do it? Or do I have to do it? Tanya, ask your mother-
Me (cutting him off): Yes, Dad, she did it.
Mom (loudly now): He can’t hear me anymore! Yes, John! It’s done.
Dad: Ok, thanks honey. Can you pass me the dishcloth over there?
Then we got quiet, and I could hear the dryer tumbling in the other room.
The scent of fabric softener and dish soap wafting through the air.
My eyes were on the floor as I began sweeping under the same kitchen table as I did back when I was seven or twelve or nineteen…
And without warning I had a flashback to ‘teenager me’ sweeping in my childhood home.
I was wondering about my homework as I made my way around the table with the broom.
I was wondering what I would wear to school the next day.
I was trying to figure out how to steal the television away from my sister who was watching her pre-recorded soaps on the VHS.
But above all that I was remembering, I had this great rush of feeling.
I felt safe.
Like I belonged exactly where I was, with all the people I loved most.
When I tuned back in to real time after this brief little flash down memory lane, I felt lighter.
Ordinary moments always bring me the most solace.
And as I continued sweeping and listening to my parents’ chit chat, I made a mental note to flashback to this moment in twenty years or so, to remember just how perfect it was.
Exactly as it was.
beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI love this so much. It's what I always try to remind people who are lucky enough to still have the home they grew up in... Not to mention parents who are still together. Read a great quote the other day: "This is the future." so true.
ReplyDeleteTears in my eyes for this.
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